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For suicide loss survivors and those who love and care for them

Early Praise for I’ll Write Your Name on Every Beach:

“This book is the eloquent story of one mother’s efforts to find her way after the death of her son by suicide, from raw numbness to slow sense-making. Who should read this book? Anyone who has lost a loved one to suicide; any parent who has lost a child (to any cause); anyone who wishes to support a suicide loss survivor; and above all, any and every mother who has lost a child to suicide. It will help you navigate your own painful journey towards peace.”

John R. Jordan, Ph.D. Psychologist, trainer, and co-author, Grief After Suicide: Understanding the Consequences and Caring for the Survivors

“Auerbach’s intimate, heart-wrenching story of a mother’s grief normalizes the grief experience for other suicide loss survivors and creates awareness regarding complicated grief after sudden death. As you read and experience the searing pain, you are led in the end to the promise of renewal--and to a celebration of life.”

Iris Bolton Director Emeritus, The Link Counseling Center and the National Resource Center for Suicide Prevention & Aftercare and Author, My Son, My Son: A Guide to Healing After Death, Loss or Suicide

"What is so special about Auerbach’s moving memoir about the suicide of her remarkable son Noah is how he comes across so alive and present. Auerbach is searingly honest, and her observations and practical advice offer hope and comfort to others who are on their own personal journeys of mourning the suicide of their loved ones, especially those with recent loss.”

Carla Fine Author, No Time to Say Goodbye: Surviving the Suicide of a Loved One

"Auerbach faces down her demons after her father’s suicide (when she was 26) and her 21-year-old son Noah’s suicide (three years ago) to offer survivors this wide-ranging set of extremely helpful tools –conventional therapeutic aids, journaling, faith, yoga and meditation exercises, and thoughtful introspection— for better coping and healing after suicide loss."

William Feigelman, Ph.D. Co-author, Devastating Losses: How Parents Cope with the Loss of a Child to Suicide or Drugs

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I'll Write Your Name on Every Beach

A Mother's Quest for Comfort, Courage and Clarity After Suicide Loss

This book bears witness to the first three and a half years after the devastating loss of a child to suicide, exploring challenges common to those left behind after suicide while offering insight and inspiration to assist survivors in healing. Part grief memoir, part personal essay, part self-help, it blends a mother’s story with quotes from experts, original poetry, and mind-body exercises to bring light and hope to the suicide grief journey. With chapters organized by theme, from birthdays and anniversaries to guilt and anger, readers can easily turn to the topics they need at the moment. All royalties will go to the Noah Langholz Remembrance Fund  for suicide prevention and survivor support programs and research.

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Paperback · 216 pages · $17.95

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